Sunday, March 16, 2008
i'm searching for my destiny
'Look up! You're missing all the scenery if you keep staring at your feet.'
*aaAAAh!*~!!%~&%!!# 'That's cos you kept looking at where you might fall...'
When you stop doing the things you love, that's when you start to lose your true self. I don't know what will be at the end of the journey. There might be nothing. Even so, I'm going to move forward.
Posted at 06:52 pm by dlgr
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Friday, March 14, 2008
a movie by the title 'August Rush'. I thought it was such a cool name, till I learnt how it came about, which is pretty lame. 'Which word stands out from that truck over there?' - 'Beach.' 'NOOOO....August Rush!!' (August Rush to the Beach)
As with most stage names, they're made up and probably just sound nice and have no meanings, especially when they're not the common type of names. With more people knowing how to spell, they're also showing their creativity through naming their kids with really (idunnowattosay) 'unique' names.
Go and watch August Rush if you like to be in the shoes of a director. It's a 'it-only-happens-in-shows' type of movie. Though it was heartwarming and thank goodness for the great soundtrack, i left with mixed feelings. Music transcends through all boundaries and connects people to one another. Felt slightly inspired again. Could feel my dream of being in an orchestra...'Can you hear it?' it's more mellow and it doesn't evoke any strong feelings within me.
the day was just not that good. i felt like i was doing my fyp again. doing iterations, inputting and changing values just brought memories from a year ago back to me. the horrors. *pray that i'll jump over the wall tomorrow*
home is a place of rest and refuge. where you can behave as you like. to me, i really see it as my private space. it's like my fort. behind these walls, i feel safe and secure. so, i get really uncomfortable if people i don't really know that well, come over to my place. and i'm trying to separate work from personal life manz. so i hope that none of them come or rather, volunteer my place for any 'event'. why do we have to know everyone's exact address?! i hate to give my address most of the times. it's the standard reaction. 'LP AH..' LIKE, SO????!
and what's the definition of condominiums now? how are they different from private apartments?? just because a few hdb blocks were transferred to some private developer, they build a fence around it, installed a guard house and poof! it's upgraded to condo status. LIKE, WHAT???!
manz, i have double standards. wahah!
Posted at 12:24 am by dlgr
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Wednesday, February 27, 2008
i want a BLACK KNIGHT pilot
I 
!!!
but then, as yx mentioned, many other girls will be drooling over him. but u see, that's the thing! and that's bad. hahah! while i'm having my idealistic dreams, this uncle at work talked to me about finding the right partner and gave his two cents worth of advice... strange things people talk about..it's so random manz! it's like all of a sudden! "should marry early ah... i've got some friends too fussy..blahblahblah...must be realistic in your expectations ah.." at this rate probably, i'll never marry. of course must find GOOD one what! of course must be PICKY! cannot return goods you know. non-refundable & non-exchangeable. somemore not-on-sale item lorr..
Posted at 11:55 pm by dlgr
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Saturday, February 23, 2008
i always wondered what's it like to have an older brother... sometimes even wishing i had an older brother..in no way am i implying that older sisters aren't good. just that i'm greedy! hah! i've heard alot that younger brothers are usually a pain in the ass, so i'm so glad that i have a younger sis. older sisters..are just older sisters...haha! they're like 2nd mommys! but an older brother is not like a 2nd daddy i think...cos guys are still more childish..so they're kinda cheeky and yet they act tough and have the 我要保护你! attitude..wahah! abit disgusting but..ahah!
i think older brothers pamper their younger sis...like giving them extra chunks of meat cos they think their little sis eats too little..like promising to get back at the person who made his younger sis lose the game..like being the back-up when their little sis is at a loss or is totally clueless..like taking a chair from all the stacked-up chairs so their younger sis can have a place to sit..like helping their little sis with techie stuff cos she's totally not into it..like doing all the manual labour stuff so his little sis won't even need to move a finger..
but older brothers can be annoying too..they love old sentimental love songs from the late 80s..they like to tease at every stupid thing eg. long beans...to even where you sleep..to barley drinks..to 'under where'..and worse when they go insane together...or when they plead with you to do something for them..and act 'cute' when they look so ridiculous..or play slam-the-door games..or this-isn't-mine game...
but there can be guys who do all the above and yet freak people out. so, it really depends who you are. wahahah!
Posted at 01:58 am by dlgr
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Friday, February 22, 2008
it sucks being the weakest link. it's not the losing that sucks. it's knowing that you're the weakest link that sucks. you're dependent on your team and putting a strain or the pressure / burden increases on them just because you're the weakest link. dang!
i'm not talkative. i'm usually on silent mode. i don't entertain people very well. i don't make people laugh or feel at ease sometimes. i'm too serious. i get stressed easily. too passive. too arrogant even though i've nothing to boast about. calculative. petty. don't excel in music or even in sports. barely average in those. sometimes, i don't even think i have a heart for the less fortunate. evil. we're born evil. so very true.
what difference can i make? what value can i add to this world that i live in?
wahaha! so serious ah! but don't you get these type of thoughts sometimes? everyone wants to feel useful, to be the stronger one to be able to stretch out their hand for others...only then, does one find life meaningful? at the expense of a weaker being, perhaps? i'm just going in circles. DANG!
Posted at 10:26 pm by dlgr
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