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Tuesday, May 13, 2008
 Instead of feeling elated, i felt weighed down. Expectations of me will just keep rising and I'm afraid i won't be able to keep up to them. Frankly at this point of time, I'm not happy with my work performance at all. And i don't know how to get over it. I'm not exactly at the point of drowning. It's just the premonition of the iceberg in front of the vessel. Will i be able to steer the vessel clear away from the iceberg? Will i be able to scale that high wall that's in front of me? Perhaps the wall seems high because i'm too near it. I should take a step back.
Posted at 12:21 am by dlgr
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Saturday, May 10, 2008
a tea table, a slice of cake and a cup of coffee. 2 deck chairs. tea-light holder with a candle inside. accompanied with a good storybook or the laptop or nothing even. lying on the deck chair with sunglasses on, soaking in the afternoon sun, if it's in the day. staring at the night sky, finding the orion belt, if it's at night. my ideal unwind.
Posted at 05:46 pm by dlgr
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Thursday, May 08, 2008
work wouldn't be called work if there weren't any datelines. they'll probably be called 'for leisure' or 'in-your-free-time' stuff. just like how work done = force x perpendicular distance, ie. if you carry a box while the lift is going up, you're not doing any work. even though that box could be super heavy or 10x heavier than you! point is, there are constraints to help define what work is.
i wonder if i was my colleague, how would i view me? do i look like someone who does work fast? or do i look like a slacker? or someone who does work slowly and hence looks busy most of the time? what other scenarios do we have?
sometimes i think about what i've accomplished and it seems so little. but i could take a whole day to do it! and i was really into it! sometimes, the day really drags and you don't really know how to fill your time. i've found a way - because sometimes i'm really busy. really really busy. my inbox is super disorganised. on days that i'm super free, i use the time to organise my inbox. voila, at least 2 hrs gone.
-i thought i should remove what i've previously written as it isn't very nice. i can't help comparing myself with others. i should just fight with myself instead of always looking around. i'm bound to bang into something if i continue doing that.Lord, help me!- author edited this post on the 12th of May.
Posted at 10:29 pm by dlgr
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Sunday, May 04, 2008
it feels good to do something on impulse sometimes. fight the odds and just do whatever you feel like doing. life is short, enjoy it to the max! didn't expect to return to hk for the 3rd time so soon. still, every trip is different and what matters most is who you're doing it with!
visited disneyland and snoopy world this time round, which proved to be a worthwhile experience. finally i can say i've visted Disneyland and Snoopy world! Both of which are miniature theme lands. I simply loved the fireworks in Disneyland! Kirei! Kirei! The most unenjoyable part of our trip was the time in Macau. We just felt so insecure while we were there. There were just so many people around and not many people understand English/Mandarin. Still, i would try to go Macau again, but in a larger group with people who know their way around.
the thing about holidays is that it feels you've been zapped into a world of your own. there's no monday blues or any feeling about the days. Like how sometimes even though you forgot the date, you still have a feeling of what day it is, but during holidays, no matter how hard you try, you don't feel it's any day. It's just a HOLI-day! and everyday of your trip is just Holi-day. Whee! Though sometimes you do interact with people in reality, you're still pretty much in your own world. i love such holidays!
Posted at 06:30 pm by dlgr
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Saturday, April 12, 2008
my impulse became a reality and i'm at changi airport blogging away. half an hour more to boarding time! whee! this is cheap thrill manz! i just have to get an entry in from changi airport. i mean, how often does one blog from changi airport???! since 5pm yesterday, i had totally no mood to continue my work. so i doodled around, wishing time would pass faster. anyway, the end of this week was horrible. my mentor's leaving and i suddenly feel overwhelmed by the number of things to do. gosh. i'm soooo glad that i have a break next week! can't wait to eat and shop and just take my mind off work. haha! i sound as if i think about work all the time...it just nags at the back of my brain. the moment i drive home, ask me anything about work and i have to think for 10mins. but when i'm at home, i'll just get the horrible feeling that i forgot to add something in the document i just released! nightmare..ohwell, holidays are here! yippeee.....first time with YT!! YIKES!>.<
Posted at 06:30 am by dlgr
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